Shattered toughts

The feeling when every single voice is too loud.

Mom is stressing over Christmas even she isn't gonna be around. Step dad is throwing "I don't care" attitude and I can hear things shattering apart. Things that create atmosphere.
I'm not chocking, not yet. It's not that bad as it was a year ago.

It's snowing finally.
I've been eating bread and sweets but I don't really care. I know I shouldn't care... I just can't figure how normal people eat or how they eat. Right now I'm numb to food, but not for my desire to be thin.

Oh! As you can see I remade the outfit :)

Come, let's forget that future 
that is becoming smeared with blood again. 
If a warm wind curls into a spiral, 
that is probably a sign.
Escape, escape, 
from this sorrowful fate. 
You are not a flower of Naraku. 
In that kind of place 
Don't bloom there, don't bloom there 
Don't let them ensnare you.Shards of time fly by without a sound.Who is grasping my hand? 
Who is stroking my hair? 
Now, in the crying sprouts, 
I can feel the signal.
Fly away, fly away, 
from the wheels of fate. 
You are not a flower of Naraku. 
In that kind of place, 
don't scatter your petals, don't scatter your petals, 
and don't sow your seeds.
Everchanging karma spreads its seeds once more.Escape, escape, 
from this sorrowful fate. 
You are not a flower of Naraku. 
In that kind of place 
Don't bloom there, don't bloom there 
Don't let them ensnare you.
Shards of time fly by without a sound.http://www.animelyrics.com/anime/higurashikai/narakunohana.htm